Sentimental...

Others would categorize me as one, keeping mementos (notes, wrappers, even messages (SMS). For some it may mean nothing or even treat such as trash, but for me it is a reminder of my relationships with people and the 'past'! Oftentimes, it would need forces of nature and time before I can finally give things up and let go.

Just the other day, I lost all the data on my phone (including almost 200 SMS and several pictures which dates back 2003). All the messages I have kept for almost 2 years, loving thoughts and comforting words which helped me through the darkest days, are now gone forever! No way to have it back! I guess I have to let go and move on with no reminders anymore of the past.

I know it's always painful, but I never seemed to learn... expectations always lead us to disappointments while attachment leaves us lost and hurt.

But I am sentimental... I'll still keep all the memories, store all the messages...
get attached and be there... even if it hurt!!!

Dead Star

I see you but I can't reach you
I know you are there but I can't have you
I sense you but only for a time
You are a dead star in my sky.

I love you but you will never know
I long for you but you will never come back
I'll miss you forever... in this lifetime
You are a dead star in my life.